From “Think On These Things…”

     ”Have you ever looked closely at a flower? How astonishingly precise it is, with all its petals; yet there is an extraordinary tenderness, a perfume, a loveliness about it. Now, when a man tries to be orderly, his life may be very precise, but it has lost that quality of gentleness which comes into being only when, like with the flower, there is no effort. So our difficulty is to be precise, clear and expansive without effort.

     You see, the effort to be orderly or tidy has such a narrowing influence. If I deliberately try to be orderly in my room, if I am careful to put everything in its place, if I am always watching myself, where I put my feet, and so on, what happens? I become an intolerable bore to myself and others. It is a tiresome person who is always trying to be something, whose thoughts are very carefully arranged, who chooses one thought in preference to another. Such a person may be very tidy, clear, he may use words precisely, he may be very attentive and considerate, but he has lost the creative joy of living.”

- J. Krishnamurti 

Without succumbing to daydreaming or sleep, without hoping for the end of suffering, without drawing on the need for belief, without drawing on anything you have ever been told – go into the question below – especially during suffering, and remain mindfully aware of whatever physical sensations arise…

…watch them pass away too.

This “observation” is capable of remaining continuous, until spontaneously one observes – at the same time – the body remaining entirely relaxed and in a perfect physical alignment. There is a gap in thinking, as thoughts naturally cease to arise, and without any effort whatsoever you will awaken… to absolute truth.

Return to “I know I am causing it (physical pain)… (but how?)” every single moment you realize that you have forgotten – especially in the absence of pain – and know it is possible to make the connection. Strive to hold onto the “how” for as long as you can; know that you can and will make the connection. Only, to reprimand yourself for forgetting is to forget that you must be the only cause of all physical pain.

The Joy in Nature

John Denver and Bob Ross; two men with military backgrounds who saw the beauty in nature, and used their talents to express it peacefully in different mediums.

Did you ever get the feeling that the “Joy of Painting” is an allegory for “The Joy of Living?”

“Everything can be corrected.”

“There are no mistakes.”

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VIII

What is Suffering?

“What is suffering?” can be looked at from three perspectives…

1. “What does the word “suffering” mean?”

2. The philosophical question “what is suffering,” or in other words, “what is the nature of all suffering?”

3. “What is it that is suffering?” Or, “who or what is suffering!?”…

…perhaps if someone is truly suffering, he/she will ask “what is suffering!?” when it is the same as asking oneself honestly “who am I?”

Upon truly questioning “who am I?” one will realize the answer to the different question, “what is the nature of all suffering?” One can realize what weight the word “suffering” held.

VII

“Genuine Human Beings” Meditation

It is when the mind is quiet that one is receptive. When there is only receptivity, when one is “waiting and seeing” there is no thought. Everything slows down and reacting perfectly becomes possible.

From thoughtless-receptivity the most beautiful things will flow effortlessly. …While witnessing a perfect, effortless reaction – that itself is enough to create another quiet mind, as someone else observes this rare state of complete perfection. And it is this blissful silence that the critic experiences upon witnessing such an act, an act which becomes possible in this state of silence.

It’s the Pursuit of Any Goal that Makes Failure Likely

The moment it is known that one won’t smoke or eat unhealthy foods, that knowing is the end and the new beginning.

It’s the pursuit of any goal that makes failure likely. Goals are indicative that one is not ready – even that one is not going to transform.

It is because one is not ready to change that change is sought. But seeking an end in the mind obscures the now – it obscures observing what actually is.

The tendency to think is what has created something that you don’t like, just as thought creates wanting it changed.

What Does This Say About Mind? (Wait and See)

          The state of being immersed in “what is,” is like a state of consistently “waiting to see.” This is not a mindstate because it is the awareness that one is not in a mindstate (a pre-conditioned tendency), because the mind is not focused on thought (which gives rise to tendencies). The mind is empty, focused on nothing, “waiting and seeing”  whatever arises in the mind, or in the present moment.

As long as there is “waiting and seeing” there is not a state of mind, because to wait and see what happens, continuously, even as something is happening, or a thought is arising, waiting and seeing resiliently allows whatever arises to pass away. There is no one, no ego, expecting to see anything.

One remains waiting and seeing the present moment alone and whenever it is realized that the awareness of the present moment is absent, because a thought arose, all five senses are reinstated, and one waits to see if they diminish. While waiting to see if perception diminishes, there is pure, present, effortless perception.

Should a thought linger and the mind remain focused in that for a while, and upon perceiving that the ego should reprimand oneself for entering this tendency, that would be entering a mindstate!

Waiting and seeing, it is obvious that any word or thought that enters the mind destroys awareness, because the mind activates with a single word, a single thought, and begins to pay attention to mental commentary.

Once in this beautiful absence of separation, if the mind focuses on examining the state of mind, the state of mind disappears. If the mind tries to understand itself further with thinking, the effortless mind-state is gone along with the present moment, because it is effortless.

Waiting and seeing is easy, realize that it is characterized by being easy. If it is hard it is not waiting and seeing. Sense the easiness, and be aware of the state of the mind and body at all times. Don’t even think about the easiness, which would create tension and make it hard. And once it becomes hard, trying to make it easy again makes it harder.

Be aware that you are not letting yourself get in the way. But also be aware that doing that is letting yourself get in the way.

The cycle of thought does not end until one experiences effortlessness; the more the mind thinks, the more it has to think about!

There is nothing to do but this – meditation. (VI)

Maybe you have been a part of a few situations that you feel you never resolved, situations that you weren’t ready to forget about – situations that just kind of faded away over time?  On the rare occasions of solitude away from work and family this is some of what people are thinking about.

On a short work break, perhaps smoking a cigarette out back with only a brick wall to face, the mind tends to think about something else, rather than stare blankly at the brick wall of the business – the place I break away from – the place I escape from.  Past experiences makes us who we are.

                Why am I still thinking about it?

1) Perhaps being aware of the thought – the memory of this past situation now – is preparation enough in case a similar one happens in the future?  (Ultimately, that having experienced this situation, though I still can’t get over it (because I am still thinking about it), I am somehow more experienced?))

2) Because I feel like I have not acted to my fullest capacity.  I might feel like I could have done or said something more.  Indeed, after the fact, the mind often puts a spin on thoughts and imagines oneself saying and/or doing the perfect thing, attaining what it could have attained but didn’t. (Only, in this imaging of oneself, the self-image is self-created.  Imagining that one could have said or done the perfect thing, after the moment for saying or doing it has gone creates the “capacity.”)

Often, the mind deems that the very past experience that it is escaping into is boring and comes back to the present leaving it unresolved.  As one walks back inside, one may or may not realize that the brick wall never existed, the cigarette neither, and meanwhile some people remark that life is short and quickly passing them by.

Perhaps five years from the cigarette in front of the brick wall, this mind thinks about that exact unresolved past situation/experience again and relives all the same thoughts another time, and creates the same feelings once more.

If the mind is still attached to the same feelings and thoughts it created from long ago, does five years seem very long; how quickly is life passing by in the mind? and here, now!

People remark that “it seems like it was just yesterday…,” and lives do become predictable, because thinking about any situation or experience is not resolving it.  The very thought of this experience is preventing experiencing the present.

Unless this one situation is resolved in the mind, this particular thought and feeling, in five more years, perhaps next time re-watching a movie, or sipping a glass of wine, the mind will relive it again.  The word “resolve” itself implies that this situation wasn’t handled…

the mind must re-solve it! and honestly, that seems to be the only problem.

Perhaps if we figure out the formula for resolving one situation – rather, living each moment to the fullest – we could be able to resolve them all instantly?

If resolving were a process, short or long-term, it would create experiences not unlike the one the mind sought to resolve. And at the end of a tiresome search – many white hairs and forehead crinkles later – one would still feel experienced when thinking about “that time “I” resolved a great problem!”  Even then one is still not living in the present, immersed in the mind, as a thinker still exists who might, on that very day, come to a new experience and not react perfectly… driving home thinking about better ways to say or do things in the future.

If the mind is to ever let any experience go, it has to watch it arise.

What unresolved experience would there be to remember if one hadn’t forgotten about the experience!?

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Don’t try so hard… it is often what you don’t do that people notice…

 The Determined Jogger

You are jogging on a narrow path. You approach a man walking – heading in the same forward direction as you. He cannot see you and he is not likely listening to your footsteps approaching – his head is down and he appears to be thinking. As you near passing him he unknowingly steps into your way at the last moment, and you hit him with a medium amount of force. He falls down and uses his hands to catch himself.

If you stop jogging what has become your intense jogging routine, to apologize and/or to see if he will let this incident pass, he will realize that you were kind enough to interrupt your practice to see if he was alright.

If you keep jogging and just look back and say something to the tune of “I’m sorry,” or even if you say nothing at all as you run away from him, then it is not as kind.

Stopping yourself for him makes him realize that you could have kept running…

If you keep running he will realize that you could have stopped yourself for him.

 Don’t think too much.

Don’t try so hard.

Don’t try to impress others.

The effort is counterproductive.

It’s the people who don’t seem to care who always appear unaffected. It is these people who don’t even try and who speak the least – who attract others, who don’t insult others, who impress others. It’s not as much saying or doing the “perfect thing” that people are looking for. Just as the man walking did not hear or see you coming, in the same way many people aren’t expecting anything…

IV

The End of the World

If you had the ability to know the exact date and time that you were going to die, and how you were going to die, would you want to?

 

III

II

I

With Maturity There Might Be Sadness

When you slow down enough to observe yourself and how you have acted and what it means… you discover the immaturity that you previously exhibited.

Then you may nor may not realize that that is how the people who you have interacted with immaturely will view you no matter what.  Often times opinions aren’t changed as easily as they are created.

Whenever you see them you remember that they already expect something petty out of you.  Your image to them becomes your image of yourself.  Now instead of simply being happy you conserve your words and movements to prevent doing something else immature, or perhaps to look for ways to act or speak to prove that you have matured.  There is a great deal of stress in this.  And now even though seeing that you have been immature is maturity in itself, you refuse to relax in a hopeless quest to prove something that just is.

There is no proving it.  When the time is right, and when you aren’t trying, the new you will shine forth…

…because there is no way of knowing how another mind truly views you.  The image that you believe you have created for yourself in another mind is created in your own mind.  If you know you are mature, truly, then you don’t feel the need to prove it… you don’t need anything.  Knowing itself is enough.

Catch the Breeze and the Winter Chills

Self-Portrait with Grey Felt Hat

Self-Portrait with a Grey Felt Hat, Paris, 1887 - Oil on Cardboard

Madness (both insanity and anger) is being able to think of nothing else.  It is the absence of creativity. 

Therefore, Van Gogh was bi-polar, if he was mad.

No one can create beautiful works of art in a state of madness.

Perhaps if he was mad, it was merely in-between paintings?

This leads to the idea that his paintings expressed such talent because each painting was a way to focus on something – which also might be why he painted some of  the same exact scenes over and over again.

At times he might have painted with the fear of losing his mind, and that fear is perhaps the greatest of all fears; his paintings were some of the greatest of all paintings to many enthusiasts…

But in a sense – of performing well out of an absolute necessity – he was not unique because we all have that capability – to lift a car off a person being crushed to death.

While he was painting, Vincent Van Gogh might have been able to do that at will; because Vincent Van Gogh’s fears, his mental illness was so great – because he was aware of it. And it was because he was aware of it that we can actually see it in his paintings…

But consider that The Starry Night is one of the few like it in Van Gogh’s portfolio. You can actually see in this painting the man’s mental state as he painted it.

The large brown figure to the left is a tree stump; likely Van Gogh was hallucinating as he painted this, given all his other paintings were more or less accurate to reality – still life’s, self-portraits…

One thing is certain – long before Vincent Van Gogh, people painted what they saw. Perhaps what separates Van Gogh’s paintings from the rest is that he painted his own consciousness, regardless of his mental state. He truly loved to paint. Truly. Starry Night becomes unique as it actually represents the face of his mind. It is so magnificent that this single painting can bring the viewer into Van Gogh’s very consciousness, that this single painting can represent, to some, his evolution over time in his short 37 years…

Clarity

The mind cannot think straight when I become angry, happy beyond belief, or even worried out of my mind, I have realized, because thought precedes feelings.

Realizing that thought causes all feelings, all emotion, must be overlooked by the person who becomes overwhelmed at any given time.

It is from a single moment of real clarity that all progresses are made from out of suffering states of body and mind.

A visitor said:
“I suffer from worries without end;
there is no peace for me, though there is nothing wanting for me to be happy.”
The Sage asked:
“Do these worries affect you in sleep?”
The visitor admitted that they did not.
The Sage asked him again:
“Are you the very same man now, or are you different from him that slept without any worry?”
“Yes, I am the same person.”
The Sage then said:
“Then surely those worries do not belong to you. It is your own fault if you assume that they are yours.”

- From the Maha-Yoga or the Upanishadic Lore in the Light of the Teachings of Bhagavan Sri Ramana

Someone who becomes angry, worried out of his/her mind, or a lottery winner, usually retains their resolve. And in the absence of that flood of feeling, in the clarity arises detachment; one can observe the present directly.

…Until thought runs away with the body again. Perhaps even as one thinks about wanting this very clarity back, until one realizes that thought causes suffering.

For the majority this is not a problem, until there is anger, happiness, anxiety, fear, etc… The inability to observe this clarity becomes obvious as suffering..

I Love Music

If you have a long enough attention span, your awareness will bring you peace…

Time ≠ Reality

Why have we not discovered that time is not real?

When you don’t want to be at work ten minutes seems like an hour.

When you truly enjoy and are immersed in a performance, a three minute song seems to last forever.

To step out of the flow of awareness and say, “I have only been here working ten minutes,” after this period of time, disrupts the flow; the continuity.  As one thinks this, that very thought, that “I have only been here working ten minutes,” creates a feeling of dislike, anxiety that itself is time slowing down.  This thought seems to last because it occurs as important. In other words, perhaps you wish you were somewhere else?  That feeling of anxiety, caused by that thought of, perhaps,  dislike, is making the ten minutes into an hour.

At that moment you have stopped yourself and you aren’t allowing what is going on in the environment around you to exist.  The flow is gone… The timeless flow is gone. The thought has created time, and at once the mind exists, as one is lost in the mind, about thoughts of anything.

While you sit enjoying a three minute performance there aren’t any such thoughts arising. It is that “enjoyment” that is timeless; effortless: absent of thought.

Time exists where there is no continuity.

The Painter’s Studio; A Real Allegory

Perhaps the most fascinating thing about a realist painting is the tangible sense of the progression of time presented in a still fixture. A renowned master, Gustave Courbet must have truly loved to paint.  Evidenced in the body and mind of “The Painter’s Studio; A Real Allegory” is the soul, the vision that does not separate. Gazing upon this painting is effortless. All at once the moment comes to life. It is painted from a point of view that would seem impossible, as Courbet himself is in the midst of a crowd. A true expert, his painting enables its watcher to pretend that he is a part of the scene. The combustion is truly interesting enough to consider. Could a description of the “Painter’s Studio,” an analysis of the principles of art used, and the meaning of the “real allegory” reveal Gustave Courbet’s intentions?

“The Painter’s Studio; A Real Allegory” (1855) Gustave Courbet

Courbet allows for a lot of detail. The Painter’s Studio is a painting of. . . a painter’s studio, however it seems more like a party. Roughly twenty-five people, including Courbet, are gathered amongst the mural-covered walls. An abundance of light allows detail, both in the painting Courbet is working on in the painting, and the painting itself. The most necessary face amongst the sea of people is from a naked woman standing behind Courbet; watching him paint. Her head is tilted to the side and her expression is still, as she studies the painting for meaning. Her shoulders are relaxed and she seems indifferent to her nakedness in relation to the people surrounding her. A white sheet that covers her front and leaves her backside exposed surmounts her. Clearly a subject, it is this very woman who creates a sense of the progression of time. Either she has been painted already or she is waiting to be painted next.  Being naked I sense an urgency to move in this painting. Although she seems comfortable, a woman needs be clothed.  She will be moving.  Wherever she moves, surely she will remain the focal point!

Since the focal point is directly in the middle, as well as the only lightly colored object in the painting, I take in the entire painting at once. Being instantaneous, there is no eye movement from one side to the other. As I examine the details individually I notice a writer sits along the right wall with a book. Musicians are present.  There is an instrument being studied on the ground opposite Courbet and the woman, and there is a violinist playing in the deep background. It adds realism to the scene. The more I study the painting, the more noises are apparent, and movement necessary to add themselves. There are cats and dogs that would be making noises. There are two children. . . one is playing with a cat, and another, possibly the woman’s child, stands near her mother imitating her interest in Courbet’s creation. The crowd likely isn’t silent.

Some elements and principles of art are more apparent than others in “The Painter’s Studio.”  This piece is an oil on canvas painting. The texture appears smooth, like the surface of a photograph. Line is demonstrated in a true realist talent. Neither too soft nor too hard, the usage of line is not over-abundant or too light to see.  The outlines of everything in the foreground, from the people to the canvas, create a kind of tangible feeling in me.  It is tangible in the sense that I wouldn’t have even considered it. The lines are where they are supposed to be. Courbet’s use of color is very distinct, although the absence of bright color would seem to contradict that statement. There is stength in his choice of rustic colors. They create age, and thus an idea of maturity. With this maturity is the absence of confusion. The content of the painting creates my thought, not the usage of colors.

This painting of Courbet’s studio lacks space in the area where he works. There is no one and nothing behind him, however, as though everyone accumulates in only one side of the room.  This absence of objects creates a sense of distance, and along with the support murals, do not end at a ceiling. Does this room have a roof? Though the room could be very big, Courbet proportioned it to create a sense of intimacy. In addition, there is repetition evidenced in the silhouettes of the crowd as well as the canvas, which is directly in front of a similarly shaped door. It creates a sequence of round and vertical shapes, which adds a realist sense of variety and rhythm. The shapes of Courbet’s friends in the studio are clearly defined. Only the mural behind them is sketchy. I can barely make out a house, trees, and some clouds.It is hard to tell what is it a painting of. This backdrop of uncertainty in contrast to the foreground of clarity, to me, actually adds emphasis to the foreground. Since it is hard to discern any concrete image amongst the wall, my eyes decide that they don’t want to work so hard, and they adjust to the other details of the studio.

The angle of Courbet’s canvas is the most noticeable example of a diminishing scale in this painting. There are others, however. Near the rear left side of the painting are three gents from biggest (front) to smallest (back), although they are all likely the same height. The people on the right are slightly angled in a similar fashion. Though not exactly symmetrical, the left and right sides seem to mirror one another to create balance. They lightly create the form of a road that gets smaller as it approaches the horizon, with Courbet, the canvas and the woman where a car would be.

I initially overlooked an important detail. A woman is slumped beneath the canvas. She appears impoverished and pathetic as she could be an allegory for the poor working class that dominated this time period in France. To the right is a woman dressed in a heavily embroidered flowing gown. She is clearly wealthy. She stands proudly next to her husband. The contrast in the posture of the two examples of class is quite a statement about the nature of the revolution. The poor struggled and were overlooked, while the rich stood through the times and were acknowledged. Courbet could be saying that there is no discernible difference in people regardless of class, because both rich and poor join Courbet in his studio, and everyone can appreciate art and understand its meaning. Interestingly enough, the young child watching Courbet is indifferent. He seems neither rich nor poor and thus he represents a kind of innocent awareness to me. An exponent of realism in its most traditional portrayal, whether or not this entire moment took place in time seems irrelevant because it absolutely could have. Indeed, I buy that this environment might have been where Courbet often painted; he could have painted it from memory.

These realist human elements are not an allegory because they are very real. Courbet used his paintings to create strong statements about the times he witnessed and the happenings in his world at large – and at small.  To name the painting a “real allegory,” is to strengthen the meaning within the paintings realism, perhaps to viewers who might have simply seen an artist, his canvas, and his friends and admirers. He adds meaning without any trickery, as the very nature of the classes is evidenced in the spirit, worn on the sleeve of the individual.  Effortlessness and suffering are very real.

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